FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

I'm so freaking sick of of this... of everything. FUCK ALL!

[By the way, I can't change the mood on this journal, if I could, I couldn't even find one that says "I'm sick of living in confusion about every last factor of my life, and needing one thing that I CAN NEVER GET, and that I really wish I'd die, but I'm not going to kill myself, I just wish I were dead because this all is honestly too fucked up to ever get better. I'm sick of living in constant hurt no matter what I try and do, nothing anyone tells me works. I can't live like this, no, not at all. I am always on the verge of breakdown, complete meltdown and on the verge of crying 24/7. FUCK EVERYTHING!" ]